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Monday Musing 1-4-21

At around 10:30 pm on New Year’s Eve, I finally finished the first draft of my latest manuscript. I gave myself a little bit of a break because, you know, global pandemic and all, but I didn’t want to drag this draft into the new year.

Writing ‘the end’ is quite satisfying, but as soon as I finish a manuscript, I experience a moment of crippling self-doubt. What if it’s total shit? What if the plot makes no sense and the characters are shallow? What if I really don’t have any talent?

During the writing process, I experience these sorts of moments a couple of times - once, smack in the middle of the story, when I’m convinced I’ve totally lost the plot, again when I’ve just finished the first draft and have to give it a read through, and finally, in the middle of editing, when I think the whole thing will fall apart.

But this isn’t my first rodeo. Nope. It’s my seventh. Yes, this is the seventh full-length manuscript I’ve completed, so I know the drill by now. Experience helps, which is why my number one piece of advice to new writers is to finish something. Even if it needs crazy edits. Even if the whole project gets scrapped eventually because it really is shit. Even if it sits in a drawer collecting dust. Experience will give you the confidence to know you can get to the other side.

I think what made 2020 so scary is that we really didn’t know if we’d get to the other side, and, if we did make it, we didn’t know what things would look like when we got there. Finishing another project and celebrating the end of a very challenging year has left me with two seemingly opposite but possibly complementary thoughts. First, we gain strength, experience, and wisdom by seeing something through to completion. Also, this moment is the only one that is guaranteed, so we need to live fully in the moment. Striving to balance these two ideas will be part of my work for 2021.

May your New Year be filled with peace, joy, and hope!

Monday Musings 4-1-19

I’m just heading home from Planet Comicon in Kansas City. It was a fun, entertaining, exhausting weekend, as all Con weekends are. I love hanging out with fellow science fiction fans and introducing new people to my book series. If we met this weekend and you’re new to Monday Musings, welcome! It was an honor to meet you, and I hope you enjoy my work. Please stay in touch!

At these events, I’ll often meet aspiring writers, wearing the same deer-in-the-headlights look I’m sure I had at the start of this creative adventure, asking for words of wisdom. My advice is always the same. Finish something!

Here’s a post I wrote a while back titled Just Finish It! You’ll Be Glad You Did. If you aren’t a writer, feel free to skip this part and check out the goofy pictures at the bottom!

 It’s important to finish a task. We know this is true for most things in life. If you don’t finish the laundry, you’ll have nothing clean to wear. If you don’t finish a class assignment, you’ll get a failing grade. If you don’t finish a project for a client, you’ll likely get fired.

 For writers, finishing our work is just as important. In this case, I’m talking about finishing a draft. Here are my top five reasons why this is really, really necessary:

An unfinished draft will never become a book.

 If you have no first draft, you have nothing to work with. A terrible first draft is still better than no draft at all. Maybe this draft won’t become a book. Maybe it didn’t turn out the way you planned. Maybe you’ve lost your enthusiasm for it and want to move on to the next idea. But maybe with patience, more work, and good editing, it will become a book worthy of publishing. You won’t know unless you finish it.

You’ll learn to write even when you don’t feel like it.

There are days when I really don’t want to write. I’d rather do just about anything else, like hang out on Twitter, or clean my bathroom, but I have to because this is a job now. What I’ve learned from finishing my projects, even the ones someone else isn’t paying me to finish, are good habits. I know that I have to create a schedule and stick to it. I know I have to fiercely protect my writing time and space. I also know I have to work through writer’s block.

For me, writer’s block has never been about lack of ideas. Instead, it’s been about losing my way with a story and becoming nearly paralyzed with fear that I won’t be able to find a trail of breadcrumbs to follow back. At the end of the day, every writer faces moments when the words won’t flow, or when we simply don’t feel like doing the work. We have to have the wherewithal to do it anyway.

You’ll know you can do it.

Once you’ve completed a project, you’ll know what it takes, and you’ll know you have what it takes. The biggest factor that kept me from starting my first novel years earlier than I did was the idea that I couldn’t finish something, that I wouldn’t be able to sustain the story arc, that I just didn’t have a whole book in my head. When I wrote the last line of my first manuscript, I knew without a doubt I could do it again. Finish something. Even if it’s terrible. Only then will you will know you can.

There will always be another shiny new object.

When I’m in the drafting phase of a project, all the new ideas want to show themselves. I think it’s because my creative juices are flowing and it’s like opening a floodgate! But if I let every shiny new story idea distract me, I’d never finish anything. Instead, if something really promising presents itself, I create a folder, jot down a few notes in an outline, and save it under my “wait your turn” file. I know I won’t lose the thread of the new story, but I also have the discipline to finish what I’ve already started first.

You’ll learn to get through the sticky middle.

Writing the beginning of a story is exciting. Making it to the end feels liberating. But the middle can sometimes get pretty sticky. Once you’ve made it through the middle, which can sometimes feel like getting lost in the forest without that breadcrumb trail again, you’ll know how to do it. Maybe not elegantly, maybe not as skillfully as you will a few years and a few more novels from now, but you’ll have done it, and there’s value in the experience alone.

Keep working and I’ll meet you at the finish line!

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This writer’s life is certainly an adventure!